Songs of Past Romance

LIST UPDATED!

It’s so weird how every time you have a new guy to drool over, there’s always a song being played over and over again on the radio that gets to you. Sometimes the lyrics of a song is too similar to your own tale of love that you think that, by some weird fate or alignment of the stars, the song was made especially for you. Sometimes a song just reminds you of your muse, despite the fact that the song is not even a love song. And sometimes you just randomly pick a song and decide that this is the theme song for your new crush, regardless of what the song is.

When I look over my shamefully long list of long forgotten romances, I realize that I still think of them whenever those songs happen to be playing on the radio. Here are a few of my past theme songs…

1. 1st boyfriend - “Kiss Me” by Sixpence None the Richer (ironic, since we never kissed)
2. Ganu - “Since You’ve Been Gone” by Kelly Clarkson (the lyrics spoke to me.. It was all pretend)
3. Love of My Life - “Kenangan Terindah” by Samsons (aku yang lemah tanpamu.. so he said.. LIES!!)
4. Beach Bum - “Sempurna” by Andra and the Backbone (first song we really listened to at the start of the relationship)
5. Fat Bastard – “Jingle Bitch” by Phoebe Buffet (FRIENDS) – some lyrics may have been changed to better suit the situation.
6. Immature - “I’m Already Gone” by Kelly Clarkson (we were always meant to say goodbye)

Current Status: Single
Current Theme Song: “Just the Way You Are” by Bruno Mars
Current Muse: ……..

The World's Best and Worst Lovers

World's Best and Worst Lovers... According to the result of a poll which sampled women from 20 different countries...

World's Best Lovers:
1. Spain
2. Brazil
3. Italy
4. France
5. Ireland
6. South Africa
7. Australia
8. New Zealand
9. Denmark
10. Canada

World's Worst Lovers:
1. Germany (too smelly)
2. England (too lazy)
3. Sweden (too quick)
4. Holland (too dominating)
5. America (too rough)
6. Greece (too lovey-dovey)
7. Wales (too selfish)
8. Scotland (too loud)
9. Turkey (too sweaty)
10. Russia (too hairy)

Click HERE to read the full article!

I Don’t Want To Give You My Number MEANS I Don’t Want To Give You My Number!

but I don’t drink,
so I’m never drunk :)

I was at a party last weekend and I got hit on by a guy. It wasn’t pleasant or nice or anything of the sort. The guy was the in-your-face type and was coming on slightly too strong. So he asked for my phone number and I said no (he looked like he couldn’t believe I had just said no to him). Then he asked if I wanted HIS phone number, to which I said no… again. You know, you’d think a guy would get the hint (what with being rejected twice in a row) and just move on. But not this guy. He came back a total of two times. The final time I said no to him (as I was leaving the party), he said, and I quote: “How cowardly of you”. Dude, I rejected you NUMEROUS times to YOUR FACE. I’d say I’m ANYTHING but a coward.

Here are some tips for guys when it comes to asking for a girl’s phone number:

1. Make sure the girl’s into you. If she doesn’t seem to be flirting back, MOVE ON!
2. When a girl says she doesn’t want your number, it means just that. She’s not playing hard to get. Trust me.
3. When she says she doesn’t want your number, don’t be stupid by coming back and asking her for her number again. Waiting a few minutes won’t make a difference, unless you can miraculously transform yourself into Gerard Butler (300 version) in that span of time.

P/S Just found out from The Journalist that the last time she was at a party with the aforementioned guy present, he hit on her. Sheeesh, how desperate do you have to be to be hitting on every female in your line of vision?

P/P/S I prefer shy and reserved guys :)

Oh my! Mr Darcy!

Finally got around to watching Pride and Prejudice. How have I not seen it before? How have I not read it before? It’s brilliant! I was squealing throughout most of the movie. Haha. I guess it’s been awhile since I’ve experienced a good romance – on screen AND in real life.

And Mr Darcy! My goodness! I fell in love with him as soon as he appeared. Reserved, aloof and awkward with the ladies. LOL. So endearing! And he totally defied his family (his aunt) in choosing to be with Elizabeth Bennett. Wish more Malay guys would have some backbone like that. And they wonder why I haven’t dated a Malay guy in a long time. Pfft!

Will definitely get the book as soon as I can. It will go into my collection of books of which I live vicariously through. A girl needs some romance in her life. And if she doesn’t have any, she can always turn to her books to assure her that true love does exist :)

P/S The handsome Mr. Darcy is played by Matthew Macfadyen.

Forbidden Love

Okay, so for some reason, my Utopian kingdom mates and I got to talking about Mary Kay Letourneau, the woman who slept with her 13 year old student and got pregnant. She was convicted and sent to jail. She was then released on parole for good behavior, but broke her parole when she slept with him again, AND got pregnant a second time. After she had served her  time in jail, she eventually married him.

Anyway, we got into this whole discussion of how wrong it was for an adult to be taking advantage of a 13 year old kid like that (despite the fact that it could be real love what with them getting married and all in the end) and also the possibility that she may be mentally ill, when I started thinking about Majou no Jouken. Aaaahhh.. the one story of forbidden love between a student and a teacher that you can’t help but swoon over. LOL. Maybe Takizawa Hideaki being as cute as he is has something to do with it? :)  Hehe. So I went on youtube and I found the opening credits for it! Enjoy!

Majou no Jouken Opening Credits

Taylor Swift – You Belong With Me

The new video for Taylor Swift’s “You Belong With Me” is AWESOME!!! I love how the video goes with the lyrics of the song, just like her “Love Story” video. It’s kinda like watching a mini romantic comedy LOL. Love it! Check it out:

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

 

P/S The dude’s pretty cute :)

Majo no Jouken

So I just finished watching Majo no Jouken. Thought I'd watch it again since I forgot what happened in the end. Anyway, a lot of people are assuming that she died in the end. But I think they're just overanalyzing the ending. She woke up. He's happy. She's happy. They live happily ever after. Is it too hard to believe that happily ever after exists? Especially in the world known as the Land of Television? :P

Anyway, the story is obviously controversial. A 26 year old teacher fallng in love with a 17 year old student. It's unethical for a teacher to be involved with a student. And did I mention that it's a CRIME to sleep with a minor? Huhuhuhu. Regardless of all this though, I still find the story beautiful. I was rooting for them all the way. OMG. I hope that doesn't undermine me as a future teacher :P

P/S Hirose Michi is a bit of an idiot. She was 4 months pregnant and the doctor told her to abort the baby or face deathly consequences. But she didn't want to abort the baby. I'm thinking WTF?! You don't abort the baby, you'll die, and the baby will die too! Pfft! Idiot, I tell you. If she was 7 or 8 months pregnant, it's understandable. They can just let the baby be born prematurely or something. But she was 4 months pregnant! She didn't even have a bulge in her tummy! Like I said... IDIOT!

Midnight Sun by Stephenie Meyer

Alright, so I was checking Stephanie Meyer's website the other day and I was thrilled to see that she had released a 264 page rough draft of Midnight Sun. Twilight from Edward Cullen's point of view. What more could a fan ask for, right? All those questions of what he did when he went away after that first encounter with Bella.. What his thoughts were when he watched Bella sleep.. Everything is in Midnight Sun.

Click HERE to download the partial draft of Midnight Sun.

Trust me, it is AH-MAY-ZING!

Twilight Movie

Twilight movie coming out on November 21st! Can't wait! EEEEKKK!!

Twilight Trailer in HD

Dreaming of Edward Cullen

I didn't want to wake up this morning. I even had a shouting match with my mom while half-asleep because I didn't want to wake up. But I had to in the end, otherwise I'd have been late going to my final exam. What was the cause of my reluctance to wake up?

Edward Cullen. Yes, that's right. I am so obsessed with the Twilight saga that I've brought it into the realm of my subconscious (not that I'm complaining :P). What was so amazing about my dream? It was as if I was replaying Twilight the book in my head, but in the form of a movie. Of course, since it's based on the book, I was seeing everything through Bella's eyes. In my dream, I WAS Bella.

I want to keep on dreaming! To wake up and realize that Edward Cullen had been watching me sleep all night long... *sigh* What I wouldn't give to enter the book and be Bella Swan.

I am a dreamer... :)

P/S Notice how I keep saying Edward Cullen instead of Robert Pattinson? It's coz I'm in love with Edward Cullen, the vampire, not Robert Pattinson, the actor. Still, Robert Pattinson makes a very yummy Edward Cullen :)

Twilight by Stephenie Meyer

So, Mr. Yummy got me Twilight by Stephenie Meyer as an early birthday gift because he won't be able to make it to my birthday tomorrow. And also because I knew the movie was coming out and I didn't want to watch the movie without knowing how the book is. How was the book? I could not put it down. In fact, I finished the entire novel in one day.. the day before my big final exam. Yes, that big final exam is tonight, and yes, I still haven't studied. Anyway, the book was amazing. Nothing like Harry Potter, but still amazing. And it is my duty to be true to myself and so I will admit shamelessly that I am now in love with vampires. Well, just one vampire. One Edward Cullen. Haha. I know, I know. It's kinda sad being in love with a fictional character. But I can't help it. Lawyer Chick says it's coz vampires have been romanticized. But really, I couldn't care less. Edward Cullen is one hell of a vampire. Can someone get me a vampire for my birthday? Preferably one like Edward Cullen? Hehehe.

Love Story - Taylor Swift

I am loving Taylor's Swift new song "Love Story". Check it out below! Don't you think the video clip AND the song is talking about a couple remembering their past life? How romantic *sigh*

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh,
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring,
And said,

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Cause we were both young when I first saw you

It Is Official

Yep. It's official. We're definitely back together now. I woke up to two texts from him on my phone.. at 5:50am. Talk about wanting something right there and then. LOL. I'm happy. As happy as I can possibly be right now. I am back together with the love of my life! Wheee~!

Of course, I know that it's still a leap of faith. But I've made my choice. I want to be with him and he wants to be with me and we are going to try make it work. You won't know unless you try, right? :)

Complicated

It's sooooo complicated! GGGRRR! Why can't things just be nice and simple? I swear, I'm gonna have at least 5 strands of gray hair by the end of next week. AAAUUURRGGGHH!!! So effing frustrating!!!!!

We've Decided To...

                        

Try and make it work. That's right people. We are getting back together. THE Ex and I are getting back together after 2 years of separation. A lot of things have changed in the past two years, but the thing that kept us apart 2 years ago is no longer an obstacle in this game of love. This is a HUGE decision for me, and I know that I'm taking a HUGE risk, but you know what they say. Life is not worth living if you're not willing to take any risks. So here I am. Taking one giant leap. Hoping (desperately, I might add) that I land safely on the other side.

P/S I should probably stop calling him THE Ex. Any suggestions for a new nickname for him?

Foot

Me being artistically bored. Yes, that IS my foot.

P/S Met up with my ex last night. It felt.. comfortable.. Just like old times. And not just any ex. THE ex.

Sinetron: Inikah Cinta?

The ONLY sinetron I'm loving at the moment. The guy's adorable. I don't care if he's 4 years younger than me, he's YUMMY!

Anyhoo, the theme song for this sinetron is below. It's a really good song and I'm in the midst of trying to find out the title and the singer of the song. Apparently it's a different theme song from the one they used when the sinetron was aired in Indonesia. So no one really knows who sang the song or even the title of the song. SO FRUSTRATING! AAAAUURGGHH!!!

Theme Song Inikah Cinta?

Another Rejection

It's over. He ended it on Tuesday. I'm heartbroken. But I'm alright. It's weird, but I think it's probably coz I've been expecting it for at least a week. You can say that I've had time to make peace with it even before it actually happened. Lawyer Chick says I should take a break from the dating scene.. That I need a breather.. I guess she's right. Take a breather, I will.

You'll always be my Panda Man, Chubz..

Missing You, Panda Man

My Panda Man has gone back home. My life's a little quieter and not in a good way. I fell asleep last night hugging his pillow. It smells like him.

Couldn't sleep at all last night. Kept thinking about him. Kept missing him. We sure fought a lot. But I'd rather be fighting with him than not have him with me.

I miss you Panda Man...

A Crazy Fool

"Wise men say only fools rush in" ~Elvis Presley~

It's been a bit over a month since we first met. And it's been less than that that we got to know each other on a personal level. But here I am, head over heels in love with him. Am I crazy? Am I rushing into it? The answer to both those questions is probably yes. Yes, I'm crazy. Crazy for him. And am I rushing into it? Yes, I am. But you know what? I really don't care. The reason it seems as if I'm rushing into this is the fact that my head has never been this clear. I know exactly who I want. Him. I know exactly what I want. To be with him. I guess I'm just a crazy fool :)

Sometimes I do wonder if I would regret all of this, should things not go the way I plan. I usually do. That's the reason I don't keep anymore diaries. Every time I look back on my diary entries regarding crushes and boyfriends.. I just feel stupid. I think "What the hell was I thinking? I couldn't have been in love with him!" Would I feel the same way about him if things didn't go well and I should read back upon this entry in the future? No. The answer is no. And I am 100% sure of that. I love him and that's that. I have never been more sure of anything in my life.

Estoy enamorada de ti...

P/S: Reason for my torturous ulcer experience was a TESCO toothpaste. Apparently I'm allergic to cheap toothpaste. Bah!